Ceremony with Jassy and Dreams of Family and Grief
Date: 2024-11-25
Transcript
I had my ceremony with Jassy last night. So damn heavy. I feel so full of grief today. Seeing her cry and read the letter that she did was a lot. Was a lot. My protector for her is still so strong, and my love for her is still so strong, knowing that we're not a good fit in this life with our attachment styles and our wounds. But the hurt doesn't dissipate because of that. Hmm. Yeah, I was pretty tired last night after the night. Just had some shitty snacks. I mean, not shitty, but... fairly healthy, but yeah, just not ideal.
And then I went to bed and I fell asleep pretty quickly. I woke up this morning, there was some pain around my wrist and I had a lot of dreams. Not about Jassy, but about different things. There was a dream with my dad and my family, really. We're in a car, and then we stop in this tourist attraction, and then I get out and I decide to hop on a train for some reason. I forget that I am with my family in a car.
I'm on this train and it stopped. And right before the train is about to leave, I realize that, wait a minute, I'm not meant to be here. So I get out and I call my dad and tell him, ask him where he's at. He tells me where they're at and I begin to find my way back to them.
And then there's another piece of the dream where someone touches my fancy hat and I look back at them, just a tall man. I don't say anything. But my hat is bent, and I feel anger at that.
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