In the Grief We Connect to the Beloved

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It's in the grief that we connect to the Beloved, which is another word for God, word for spirit, word for the Great Mother, for Source. It's when we're facing that moment of crisis, when we're at our wit's end, when we're having doubts, when we're having fears, when we're having, when we're facing the crossroads of life and we don't know which one to necessarily take. We come close to the Beloved. The Beloved appears to us in our sorrows and when we have surrendered.

It's in the feeling that we get to heal, and in the feeling we heal because we're close to God. And we have all these peak experiences where we think we're going to have the breakthrough, but it's actually in the unknown. It's in the mystery, it's in the grief, it's in the ritualized expression of the grief that we come closest to our heart.

From my experience, the closest I've been to God was when I drowned. The closest I've been to God was when I went through a two-year relational cleanse. And the closest I am to God is usually when I'm in the sweat lodge, in the dark, the abyss, the cocoon, where I don't know who's next to me or what's happening, and I'm just in the dark.

I am closest to God when I am surrendering to my fear, to my grief, to my longing. God comes to me when I'm absolutely at the end of my wits and I have nowhere else to go and I can't do anything else but surrender. ^rwhi897577634