Ceremony With Jassy and Dreams of Family and Grief

Highlights

I had my ceremony with Jassy last night. So damn heavy. I feel so full of grief today. Seeing her cry and read the letter that she did was a lot. was a lot. My protector for her is still so strong, and my love for her is still so strong, knowing that we're not a good fit in this life with our attachment styles and our wounds. But the hurt doesn't dissipate because of that. Hmm. Yeah, I was pretty tired last night after the night. Just had some shitty snacks. I mean, not shitty, but… fairly healthy, but yeah, just not ideal. And then I went to bed and I fell asleep pretty quickly I woke up this morning there was some pain around my wrist and I had a lot of dreams Not about Jassy, but about different things. There was a dream with my dad and my family, really. We're in a car, and then we stop in this tourist attraction, and then I get out and I decide to hop on a train for some reason. I forget that I am with my family in a car. I'm on this train and it stopped. And right before the train is about to leave, I realize that, wait a minute, I'm not meant to be here. So I get out and I call my dad and tell him, ask him where he's at. He tells me where they're at and begin to find my way back to them. And then there's another piece of the dream where someone touches my fancy hat and I look back at them, just tall, man. I don't say anything. But my hat is bent. and I feel anger at that. ^rwhi816942489