Suffering

Why must I, why will I end suffering as it arises? Why will I live in a beautiful state every day no matter what? What would transform if fear were no longer a part of my life?

Because the beautiful state is what my essence is about. Being in suffering perpetuates suffering even more, and being in that state doesn’t help me achieve my full potential.

My life would transformed with abundant love, and I would spend less time questioning others’ motivations, and just love them unconditionally instead.

***What are my top 2 flavours of suffering? ***

Grief/Self-criticism
Depression

What tends to trigger them? What do I feel and do?

Grief - When things aren’t as they are supposed to be
Self-criticism - When I don’t do something the way I envisioned doing it.

I shut off.

As I notice myself shutting down, move my body, speak up, snap out of it with “whoa”
“The suffering stops when we serve something greater than ourselves”