Imagine you’re Rip Van Winkle, waking up from a long slumber. Your kids are no longer, your wife is gone, and there are all of these new people that are meant to be related to you, but you feel no connection to.
You don’t even have to think that far. Just imagine losing your job, your house, your friends, your life. Imagine moving to a new country where you don’t speak the language or you don’t anyone.
You can see, or maybe draw from your own experience, how shot your nervous system could be. How confusing it might feel. How lonely or isolating you might be.
After all, you’re in a new situation. It’s all so confusing, so hard to adjust to.
That’s what healing, evolving, and transmuting pain, heartbreak, karmic patterns look like. It’s befriending the death and rebirth of so many in one body, in one life. You’re torching every single fiber and conditioning that must go, and you must birth new ones in its place, and maybe retorch those too and rebirth new ones in that place. It’s a constant cycle of grief, loss, discovery, euphoria, confidence, and everything in between and beyond.
And that’s when you can understand why most people, if given the option to, would rather not do this work. Because it’s confronting. It means you have to constantly shift your own ideas of what you thought was the truth, only to realize it was just a sliver in that moment of time. This work leaves us, and possibly the ones closest to us, bloodied, bruised, and hurt. The easy thing would be to play by the books, stay in the status quo, and get by another day.
But once you’re faced with this work, you realize the courage and the determination and strength that you’ve cultivated through this, and all the different versions who you’ve met through this process, has shaped you for this exact moment, to take another step into the unknown.
It’s all unknown. And it takes so much strength, perseverance, and faith to move through.
And only a select few get to do this. Which is why it’s you, and not anyone else in your family or friend circle, is empowered to heal the collective wound and patterns.
As one of my teachers says, feel all of it. Surrender completely. Now, begin again.